i am freaked out of my mind about chem cts. out of my bloody mind.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
edit2: i made my font larger! although its uglier but at least its more reader friendly (:
edit: i switched on my gc and found HI ZEB DONT PLAY UNTIL LIKE THAT staring back at me. lols. i love my class.
last afternoon, i went to nap for my planned hour, but instead woke up at 12am all confused about where my evening went. )))))))))): twas not a fun experience i totally freaked out ): luckily school was not very demanding today so i did not die in class.
on a separate point, i think mrs khoo/ms ong/ my mom are all very lucky women. when i grow up i hope i can be half as lucky.
and i really am impressed with mrs khoo's faith. all she needed was a sign and when it was given she believed. i would like to have that much faith too.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
THE BIGGEST ORANGE IN THE WORLD OMGZZZZ.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
im usually not a fan of viral vids (ask any youtube addict whos tried convicting me to watch a vid) but this is TOO CUTE.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
today was a beautiful day.
i played hard, studied hard, and the night ended pretty well with storyline dinner. idk why, but that 2 hours that ended the day just erased all the stress of the entire week. funny how a group of almost strangers can lift my spirits eh (:
Friday, February 19, 2010
the night started off well, but is gradually getting crappier.
maybe i should go to sleep before it degenerates.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Happy Belated Valentines
the first real bout of orientation withdrawal hit me this morning, whilst on the 157 to school. i looked around at the j1s sitting on the bus, waving excitedly to other batchmates when they boarded at their respective stops, and thought about how it seemed not so long ago that chris, vera, eileen and i were excitedly calling up our oglings to inform them about orientation. how we debated on the enthu-ness of each ogling after we hung up. how we fought to make calls to certain people we had previously met/ heard about. how we tried, but only succeeded for joel and julia, to creep them out.
and now they flood our canteens, invade our lts and in general, up the noise level to an entirely new level. and im saying this as the ct rep of the loudest class around xD
and then i thought about storyline. about all those hundreds of rehearsals. about those late night rides home in jonny/dan/nora's cars. about freaking out the week before orientation. about trying to help on the sets but doing the complete opposite.
i miss. but theres storyline sleepover soon (((((((((((((:
Saturday, February 13, 2010
AIEEEEEEE! I AM TANNNNNNNN DDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
-is terribly annoyed-
Friday, February 12, 2010
oh yeah, love also goes out to the boys of 3G. i knew the notes (and the cookies) were coming, but they were unexpectedly touching nonetheless (:
i dont give either of my ogs enough credit.
MR'10 09, MR'05 10, you guys are amazing.
leave a tag if any of you have found your way here (:
Thursday, February 11, 2010
second post is dedicated to VERA.
1. BECAUSE VERA DOES NOT KNOW: IF YOU PRESS ESC YOU STOP THE AUTO PLAYING SONG.
2. KUDOS TO VERA YUEN THE BLOOD DONATING LIFE SAVING CHAMPION OF THE WEEK!
today im going to blog a post that is actually worth reading.
im going to be honest and say that emotionally, jc has been cruelly hard to me. the first few months was horrendous, because i really didnt feel part of the class. or maybe i just didnt know how to be part of the class. and to not fit in was a horrible experience, because i had never felt that way before and never believed i could. i cut myself away and tried to return to the familiar, except the familiar was the past and the past was over. and that feeling of being completely isolated was so acute and painful that well, the first few months was really just hell.
it was in those few months that i felt that if i had just rolled over and died nobody would bother enough to care. yes, it was unfair to think that of the friends i had, but at that time the hurt was overwhelming.
things got better in the 3rd term. i guess i have to thank biang, he was the first person to take an active interest in me (besides ro, but ro has been there since the start) without me first slapping him in the face to tell him i exist. he probably wouldnt read this and probably would never know, but i appreciated that, and to perhaps a large extent, now that i look at it, it was all i needed at that time. someone to take the initiative to get to know me, because i was so tired of trying to get people to.
from then on things just got better. i stopped being antisocial, and started to become more like myself and that in turn encouraged people to get to know me. and when the new year arrived, i promised myself, ill stop being someone else.
its difficult, really, being yourself is always hard when youre a teen. but i think ive done a good job so far. geoff says ive become a lot happier since i had storyline, and perhaps its true. i love them because no matter how exclusively hp, no matter how small my role is, and ironically, no matter how dramatic they each are themselves, they treat me like i belong, and they give me the time and chance to be a little dramatic myself. ok maybe a lot dramatic. but im that kind of person, and if you dont give me the chance to stand up and scream, i get claustrophobic and sad.
but this post is not to share with you how upsetting it was, or to blame anybody for anything. this post is to tell you, that right now, im having the time of my life. yes, im not the closest person to my classmates yet, and everytime i get a card that says "thanks for being such an awesome ct rep you make the class fun" i die a little inside because i know people only write that when its the first thing they associate you with. but its demanding to try to be everyones best friend and ive had a late start getting to know everyone, but i hope, that at the end of the day someone can walk up to me and thank me, for being me. i just need people to give me the chance to let them know me better. and sure, there are always people ill want to get to know better, people i wish i were closer to, but i must always remind myself, again and again, that i already have people who love me, and i must never be frustrated enough to forget them.
why suddenly blog about this? well, lately there have been a lot of posts by people, talking about how life has been so tough on them, about how no one cares about them and vindictively, they will not care about nobody as well. when i read those posts, i could identify. some were about crushes that didnt work out. there are plenty of those in jc, with all its signals and hormones and stress and other things that make people lose their minds and focus. yes, lost crushes are painful, humiliating and very emotionally tiring. but at the end of the day, it ends when it does, and the people who loved you at the start will still be loving you at the end. i count myself lucky i have people like that.
so, in this pre-valentines day post, i want to SHOUT OUT to the people who love me and the people whom i love in return: THANK YOU for being you. and for appreciating me for who i am (: love, jo.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
i dont know how to read your signs.
happy birthday in advance, ram.
last night, just as i was falling asleep, my daddy stepped into the house.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Monday, February 8, 2010
hoho so many new posts today! imma on a roll. new song up: I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat. im beginning to really like her, shiyin!
COME. i personally think its a very good initiative, regardless of the fact that im involved in its prep.
for the past couple of weeks, my new doorbell has rung loud, proud and ostentatiously the prosperity-bringing tunes of Gong Xi Fa Cai. its a little embarrassing really, every time someone you dont know (like the pizza delivery boy, or the collection of tuition students under my moms wing) rings, but at the same time, never fails to bring about a giggle.
my doorbell also rings other tunes, in increasing randomness. i had a good mind to tape then down and show you guys for a good laugh, but ive been busy as of late. perhaps next time.
in the meantime, days till take 5 crawl by ):
Sunday, February 7, 2010
i guess, when it boils down to it, its the idea that i will never ever get to work with these people again in my entire life. i mean, hp and councillors, there is no possibility.
and ive only began to know them.
hello (:
ive been neglecting you i know i know ): sorrysorry! i hate dead blogs they are sad and boring. esp if the author goes and posts their blogs on their pm and make it seem like they update but they actually dont and it just makes you very angry you bother to check anws. one of these days i will go on fb and create a page called My Blog is So Dead I Post its URL on My Personal Message so I Don't Forget it Actually Exists. and see how many fans i get
^^
heehee, lifes been pretty hectic lah. theres a lot of catching up to do in school and sometimes idk i just dont feel like studying anymore. like urgh sian. esp since cny is coming up! daddy is coming home! take 5 is around the corner! i have new clothes! and my brain has been quite occupied making Decisions these few days, like quitting h3 math (ikr, but i think ive given myself enough opportunity to confirm my decision to do so and will leave behind no regrets), almost quitting chinese drama (if not for geoff convincing me that staying has more benefits) and right now, wondering if i should take on the extra commitment of being an IU ic. i mean, it'll be fun, but will i have the time!?
meh. decisions make life difficult. why cant i have a normal brainless school term.
in other news, i need to go shopping for presents/ a nail buffer soon, but i am so broke i feel sad ): orientation is an expensive business! but its fun and i miss it ):
GAH.
another interesting thing to note, having been a wondergirl seem to make people think im actually a bimbo ): im not ok! i mean, i give a fairly good impression of being one, but really its like Oh My Gawddd so Annoyyyingggg. like, gimme some credit please?
and ytd was nfn! twas a lot better than i expected it to be, there really were a lot of random people from everywhere and idk how people/ fik managed to actually get all those people there so im really impressed! plus it was fun for a lot of the people i spoke to so thats great (: personally, it was nice to go out and watch people play bball/ soccer and frolick around with random friends haha.
kk, am srslyz counting down to cny (:
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
before i start, an important question:
HOW DID THE PEOPLE I LED AROUND SCHOOL DURING OPEN HOUSE TOURS MANAGE TO TRACK ME DOWN MANZ DDDDDDDD:
imba skillz. and i once prided myself for my elusivity.
oh, and another thing:
IF YOU WANT NETS FOR NETS CARN COUPONS BUY FROM ME PLSPLS $10 FOR $11 WORTH OF COUPONS.
yeah. very important. if you buy from me i will love you forever xD
i wouldnt start on the oh-shit-orientation-is-over-i-miss-it-so-freaking-much-my-life-no-longer-has-any-meaning-left ramblings yet, because the withdrawal syndrome has yet to set in for me. although im pretty sure after i spend the next week storyline-less itll start to hit me ):
but in the meantime, im still living off the high and the constant og/ storyline meetings left, so im good ^^ (and really really tired ): but its ok)
but i guess, i just really want to say without emoing, that im really glad i chose to be part of orientation. i really enjoyed the entire experience, storyline and ogling. and im really grateful to those many months of joy and inspiration that storyline has brought me.
Monday, February 1, 2010
是累的，是累的，是非常累的！